I miss summer.

 I miss the late nights with friends, sitting by the fire, eating smores, playing the guitar, singing at the top of our lungs, and dancing like idiots. I miss the close friends that I could trust with anything, and were always here for me. I miss the romance that never was, just being myself with a guy who loved me for me, who made me feel confident about myself, and having a relationship with no complications (well, almost…). I miss not having my life in order, and not giving a damn about it because I was having the time of my life.

But lately, it’s been hard. The seasons have changed, and so have we (as cliche as it sounds). I’ve made some stupid mistakes which I now have to live with, and it’s killing me. I can no longer truly confide in my friends about them because, well, I don’t have many I can fully trust anymore. And now I’m forced to get my life together, and it’s hard, especially when I am constantly having to filter everything I say in do in order not to piss people off. Yet I still manage to upset everyone. It’s frustrating, and exhausting, and I’m starting to lose it….

I just want to feel free again.